Friday, August 9, 2013

TMI Tuesday

Ok, I know it isn't Tuesday, but I found this on another blog and thought it would be a great thing to integrate into my posts. Perhaps it will help me post more! So here is this weeks belated TMI Tuesday!

1. What’s your dirtiest secret?
 Well, I have talked about it here before, but my dirtiest secret is the alter-ego I created online about 6 or so years ago. I shared pictures and did cam shows for my followers.

2. What’s the sweetest thing you have done for someone?
 Um, I'm not really sure. Not that I don't do nice things for people, but I guess I don't think too much about it. I just do it.

3. What’s your favorite foreplay act to give? Receive?
I love to give head/hand jobs. Sometimes I think I take it too far, driving him too much up the wall, if that is possible. I just love to tease ;-) As far as receiving, I love my nipples played with. Nothing will get me wetter quicker.

4. State five (5) facts about your body.
1. I have huge tits. Not even exaggerating. It is very hard to find the right cup size. The band size is no problem, but I explode out of even DDD.
2. I can squirt.
3. I am very ticklish.
4. I have very sensitive nipples
5. I am pretty tall (for a female)

5. Would you like to fondle the person next to you?
 At the moment, there is no one next to me. If it was my husband, hell yes.

Bonus: Penis or vagina? Why?
Penis. I really love me some penis.

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Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Well, I am happy to say that I am a mom to a beautiful daughter! She is nearly 6 months old now, and boy has it been crazy around here!

 I am quite enjoying being a mom, but it really has been a change for my husband and I. I had a c-section. After baby, I was very sore, but still frisky feeling. I was "threatened" (not really LOL) by my doctor not to have sex for 6 weeks, and at first I didn't want to risk hurting my incision. I made up for it by giving my husband head when I was awake enough and baby was napping. At my 2 week appt, my doc basically gave me the go ahead to get it on, but wanted to make sure I didn't get knocked up again. The next day we gave it a try. It was a bit uncomfortable, but got better in time.

Six weeks out, I started on birth control. I haven't been on BC in years. It was pretty horrible. It totally took away my sex drive and made me feel, well, hormonal.I chose the pill because I do not want anything long term, because I would like my kids to be semi-close in age. I made the decision to go off of it because I do not like the way it makes me feel.  I have mixed feelings about it. I have fertility issues, so getting pregnant was not easy. I used no birth control for over 3 years without a single pregnancy (though, we would have been happy to have it happen). I am not too worried about getting pregnant again coming off BC. I know it could happen, but I don't think it will without other interventions. I would be ecstatic to get pregnant, honestly, but maybe more towards this winter or next spring. As of right now, whatever happens, happens.

So, right now my husband and I need to work to get our spark back. Between my zero sex drive and the baby, we haven't had too much time alone. I am vowing to make a change and get back in my groove. I am super self-conscious about my post-baby body. I didn't have a perfect body before. I was self-conscious before, but I know my body has changed. I am finding it really hard to feel sexy. My lingerie doesn't fit the same. I, quite frankly, feel gross. My husband shows me how much he loves my body, so I am trying to focus on that and not so much on my imperfections.

I am hoping we can try some new or different things. I hope I can get the spark to write again. I found some of my old stories. I was about 16 or 17 when I wrote them, so they are pretty horrible. I was an inexperienced virgin writing about everything lesbian sex to group sex... Maybe I should rewrite/update them a bit and post them here. I am a bit embarrassed about them, but you gotta start somewhere!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Times are changing

Ah, my good intentions with this blog just weren't enough for me to keep it going! Here we are in a brand new year! It is amazing how fast time can fly by without noticing. In my post last May, I made mention of lots of things going on in my life, and well lots more have happened since! Times are changing for me. My husband and I are expecting a baby soon!

This has been quite the adventure. It is kind if scary in a multitude of ways. This was planned out, but reality is that you have no idea how something is going to be until you go through it for real. It has been rough. I was lucky to not have morning sickness. I was very lucky to feel perfectly normal for the majority of the pregnancy. Things really did catch up to me as I get into the 3rd trimester and I realized that I am not super woman. Things hurt that I never knew could hurt! Getting put of bed in the morning can be a bit of a task haha. There are a million things that I need to get done and not enough hours in the day...

So here I am. I am so excited to meet this little person but very scared. I, of course, worry about the basics of being a good parent, but I also worry about my relationship with my husband. I know it will be an adjustment for sure, but I want to make sure we still have time to devote to each other. I know we have to find a balance. I want to keep that intimacy alive.

I cannot promise that I will be too active with this blog after baby, but I will say that I will try. After all, just because I am becoming a mom doesn't mean I am no longer a sexual woman. I know our child will make our lives that much sweeter and be worth all the lost sleep. We will learn and adapt and appreciate nap time quickies ;-)